I had been working for the United States Postal service since February. According to everyone around me, I was living my best life. I was making good money, I had an easy job.
"You've got it made," they would tell me.
"Why do you want to finish college to be a teacher? That's stupid. You have a federal job where one day you will make more than a teacher does. You should be happy."
I wasn't. I had the easiest job. I ran a rural post office in the middle of a corn field. I worked 4 hours a day, 6 days a week and to be honest, when you added the extra hours I would work from time to time, I made almost what I make now as a teacher. True, I made good money.
Did I hate the job? No. It was super easy. I enjoyed talking to the people that came in there, but if you know me, I'm a people person. I'd catch myself talking to them still and would look out the window and they would be in their car pulling away.
Okay, okay. I listened to everyone else, and 2 weeks before I was set to student teach, I switched college paths and opted not to student teach. I'm a people pleaser, that's what I do.
I cried. I cried and then I cried. It was terrible, but everyone around me was happy, so what do you do?
I was lonely. I didn't feel like I was serving a purpose. I wasn't changing lives. And ya'll, I'm a world changer. I am a magic maker. I'm a wave maker. I set out to change lives, and I wasn't doing that by selling stamps.
Every day, I came home sad. Depressed.
I started listening to podcasts. I listened to murder mysteries and life podcasts. And, I discovered this girl named Rachel Hollis. She had a couples podcast that I got obsessed with. Let's face it, when the wife is depressed and miserable, her marriage can fall by the wayside as well.
I read her book, "Girl Wash Your Face." 2 weeks two late, because I cried more in regards to pleasing everyone else. But, they were happy, so what did it matter about myself. I'm a people pleaser, still it's what I do.
And one day, Dave Hollis did the weekly podcast. And, when it comes to Rachel or Dave (I call them by a first name basis, because we are basically like friends at this point),I am more relatable to Dave. Friends, okay not really, I just stalk their gram. ;)
So, I'm listening to Dave Hollis talk about these things. Growth. Failure. Fulfillment.
You can't grow, unless you fail. You can't fail if you are comfortable. You can't grow if you are comfortable. I am the type of person that needs to live a life fulfilled. I need to know I'm doing something that holds a purpose that I'm passionate about. I sat in that small post office listening to this podcast knowing I was going to make a life change. I came home raving about this new man in my life, Dave and played the podcast for Brandon. And in that moment, I told him that I was going to quit the post office.
I ended up cutting my pay over half by quitting, but I managed to get a job back in the school system. People talked. They thought I was crazy. Family scoffed. But, for the first time in MY life I did something for me.
Life is funny, how it works out. I took a chance and ultimately it led me to my perfect destination. A few months after this major life change, a teaching position opened up at the school I am now at. And now, I've got the best job ever, with the best co-workers ever. I am living my dream.
I am fulfilled. I am growing every day. And I am living for ME.
Episode 30. Dave changed my life. Check it out.
https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/30-you-cant-grow-unless-you-fail/id1407481308?i=1000429480763
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